I would have what I want, but I wouldn’t know “Him”

waiting = knowing more of Him

Wait

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried:
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the Master so gently said,
“Child, you must wait.”
“Wait? You say, wait!” my indignant reply.
“Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is Your hand shortened? Or have You not heard?
By faith, I have asked, and am claiming Your Word.

“My future and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance, and You tell me to WAIT?
I’m needing a ‘Yes,’ a go-ahead sign,
Or even a ‘No’ to which I can resign.

“And Lord, You promised that if we believe
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And, Lord, I’ve been asking, and this is my cry:
‘I’m weary of asking! I need a reply!'”

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, “You must wait.”
So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut
And grumbled to God, “So, I’m waiting… for what?”

He seemed, then, to kneel
And His eyes wept with mine,
And He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign,
I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun,
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.

“All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be,

You would have what you want —
But, you wouldn’t know Me.

You’d not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You’d not know the power I give to the faint;

“You’d not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there;
You’d not know the joy of resting in Me;
When darkness and silence were all you could see.

“You’d never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You’d know that I give and save, for a start,
But you’d not know the depth of the beat of my heart.

“The glow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that’s beyond getting just what you asked
Of an infinite God, who makes what you have last.

“You’d never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that, ‘My grace is sufficient for thee,’
Yes, your dreams for your loved one overnight would come true,

But, oh, the loss if I lost what I’m doing in you!

“So, be silent, My child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me,
And though oft’ may My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still, “Wait.'”

(This poem originally appeared in
Wait: A journey to discovering the heart of God by Russell Kelfer,
and was excerpted from
Emotional Purity: An Affair of the Heart by Heather Arnel Paulsen)

Thanks to my friend, Tin, for sharing this excerpt (which eventually made me read the actual book! haha). Anyway, I believe you’ll agree with me when I say that the poem was so beautifully written, it’s unfair not to share it!

So yes, if you’re waiting for an “answer” from God, whatever that may be, I hope this poem somehow “answered” you for now. After all, nothing worth it ever comes easy in this life, so if you’re being “pruned” right now, just remember that you’re in good hands — God’s hands!

In the meantime, while you’re still waiting, take advantage and get to know more of Him. Talk to Him. PRAY! What is He trying to teach or tell you? And then LISTEN — through your heart.

I wish you well, my friend. Stay patient and strong, and God bless!!! ❤

“The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness. Instead He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.”
-2 Peter 3:9

Book Review: Eleanor & Park by Rainbow Rowell

Title: Eleanor & Park

Author: Rainbow Rowell

Format: Paperback

In a nutshell
It was the year 1986, the time when casette tapes and comic books were all the rage. It was also the year that red-haired Eleanor met Taekwondo-skilled Park — and vice versa — while riding the bus to school.

Both considered themselves “outcasts” but even so, their first impressions of each other didn’t go well. so it was a surprise how two odd bus mates slowly fell for each other; thus starting their “friendship-love story.”

My thoughts
Let’s get this done and over with: I DIDN’T ENJOY IT! I know, I know. A LOT of people loved this book, so maybe this is just me. Maybe I’m just not into the whole 80’s thing, or I just couldn’t really connect and relate with the main characters, both Eleanor and Park. The different issues they had individually made me uncomfortable, especially the last bit about Eleanor. The feels other people felt while reading this book? I didn’t catch ’em. The only two feelings I can associate with this book are “boring” and “dragging.” Sorry not sorry.

However, this is my first Rowell book. I’m still willing to give her a chance. Good thing her other books have different “themes.” Read this ONLY if you want to read all of the author’s books. But if you’re fine with not reading them all, skip this.

Rating: 2 out of 5

Do you or do you not agree with this review? (Haha!)
Share your thoughts by sounding off in the comments section below!

Weekly Essential: A Massage from Esencia Day Spa

For more than a decade now, I’ve been a big fan of massages, mani-pedi’s, and whatnot. Those close to me know that I really allot a budget for these treatments every payday (kikay mode! #sorrynotsorry), and I’m glad that my sisters and some of my girlfriends also share this same “wellness priority” mantra in life. Haha. Anyway, I’ve been to a lot of spas in the metro — for massages, for nails, for waxes — so I’m a little confident in really recommending some of my go-to establishments and the services they offer.

For this post, I’ll be focusing on ESENCIA DAY SPA located in Solenad 3, Nuvali, Sta. Rosa, Laguna. 🙂

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As most of my friends know, I’m a Manila girl during the weekdays and a Nuvali girl during the weekends. The result of that? Going to Solenad (an Ayala Land mall in Nuvali) has been a part of my Saturdays for almost four years now! Solenad 1 is famous for its restaurants and the koi fish pond. Solenad 2 has more restaurants, some spas and stores, and a supermarket. As for Solenad 3? I believe it’s the most complete. It has ALL those plus the cinemas! And of course, Esencia Day Spa!!!

(photo courtesy of Esencia Day Spa's Facebook page)

(photo courtesy of Esencia Day Spa’s Facebook page)

I’ve been going to Esencia ALMOST every Saturday since December 2015, and I believe it’s about time I share with you WHY. Aside from their Moroccan-inspired interiors, they have the most amazing foot reflexology ever!!! And I’m not even exaggerating. Like I said, I’ve tried a lot of spas (even abroad), and their foot reflexology is just the best for me! They have a well-trained staff, and the strokes they use are really balanced — just enough pressure to make you feel calm and relaxed! (And sometimes, even snore too! You know what I mean? Haha!)

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Aside from that, I also recommend their therapeutic body massage to remove those aching muscle knots (or what Filipinos usually call “lamig”). The 60-minute treatment is just not enough (bitin!), so I say go for the 90 minutes — which is what I prefer anyway. But if you’re not into that, you can just go with the classic Swedish body massage.

Recently, they have promos and one of which is the “Spa for Two.” My sister and I availed of this and for two hours, we escaped “stress” thanks to the treatments included in the package: foot scrub + warm stone body massage + tea = all for only Php1,999 for two! This is a limited-time offer, so I highly suggest you drop by Esencia as soon as possible! (You might even bump into the owner, Les! Say hi to her from me! Hehehe!)

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Lately, I’ve noticed that Esencia has been jam-packed and fully booked (which is great, I’m really happy for them!), so if you want to book a slot or two, make sure you give them a heads-up first.

contact Esencia Day Spa today! :) (photo courtesy of Esencia Day Spa's Facebook page)

contact Esencia Day Spa today! 🙂 (photo courtesy of Esencia Day Spa’s Facebook page)

My recommended treatments in order:

  • Foot Reflexology
  • Therapeutic Massage
  • Swedish Massage
  • Warm Stone Massage

So the next time you find yourself in the south side of the metro, head over to Nuvali and enter the doors of Esencia Day Spa! Promise, you’ll come out refreshed, relaxed, and rejuvenated — even alive, awake, alert, enthusiastic! Wahahahaha! 😉


esencia 5What treatment/s are you looking forward to try at Esencia Day Spa?
What other spas in the metro can you recommend?
Let me know! 🙂